#5. Confessions of a Job Seeker – Sept. 2012
This series is based on a design journal that I kept between 09/12 – 02/13. New? Start here.

It occurred to me one day that this dream I was chasing, this place I was trying to get to, might not ever arrive. This might not be a phase. Could I really keep striving at the pace I’d been going for almost a decade? What if it did take an entire lifetime to finally get there? Was there even a ‘there’ to get to? How would I need to live on a daily basis to be ok with that? In many ways it has made me wonder if happiness as we traditionally define it is even the goal.

We’re all pursuing this elusive, one-dimensional definition of happiness when maybe what would serve us better is to focus on meaning. It does take work and it’s hard, but that’s kind of the point. Our lives are a creative process. Nobody wins by getting to the end first.